struggle

There is a bit of chaos in my head, as of late. Father J spoke a good homily Sunday about the peace of Christ, and how He wants to give it, and how we need to seek it. But this confusion regarding relationship is not allowing me any peace. I don't know if I am being tempted, tested, or challenged. Or perhaps, none of these. I'm trying to figure out if and how fear plays a role in the whole thing. I am questioning happiness and responsibility. Duty and love. This too shall pass, but will it? And after how long? And does it matter anyway?